Lets embrace for a moment if you will, what this blog is about: Bipolar Me, and Writing. I have been writing my ass off lately. (That is assuming I had one, sadly though I suffer from a serious case of NoAssAtAll) I have been enjoying the writing way more than I should, and it makes me long for the missing element in my life: learning. Not that every day isn't a learning experience, but academic excellence is something I want back in my life. Right now though is not the time for me to start back to school, but perhaps in the future I will finish a degree and pursue something higher. I really just want to embrace the lazy, joyful side of myself and take a writing class locally.
Someone inadvertently gave me an idea of what to write about, and I am more than confident that it will fly. I am not ready to announce to the world what it is yet because the world is not ready for this wonderfulness :P Its something that no one would expect of me, that's all yall are getting out of me right now. You will see soon enough. Right now though, I have to focus on some of this writing work before I can focus on leausrely writing. When I am finished with this current work, I am not going near my computer or cell phone, I have been too consumed with them and need a break. Although they are helping me get my work done, I am needing a break from them.
So the next part of this here blog....the bipolar side of me. One of the things that I am writing has to do with a Herman Melville story, in which the main character has the traits of someone with mental health issues. Which got me to wondering how many pieces of literature had characters with similar "problems" and I came across an awareness website for people with mental health issues. Between reading that and actually meeting and becoming friends with someone who has bipolar disorder, I realized that my illness does not define me. If people want to say that I act the way that I act because I have mental issues, that is on them. I have come to the realization that I am a beautiful, intelligent, caring, woman with a great head on her shoulders, and NO ONE can take that away from me.
Whether it is my bipolar that makes me this way, or if my character's growth has made me this way, it makes no difference to me. I am a creative, unique individual, and no matter what mean words people want to say or believe about me, they cant shake that away from me!
I have realized in the six months that I have been away from David that I am a very strong person and I am not going to back down. In this time I have also met and developed wonderful relationships with some amazing people. I have met new people and gained new friends, I have built a stronger bond with those people I have known for a while, without really KNOWING them. These are the people I want in my life, not the people who decide to turn their backs on me. If my family and friends want to not talk to me, then that is fine by me because it does not take someone else's approval to validate me.
From this day forth, I am going to write my ass off and put my all into it. Remember this blog post because by this time next year I will be even more awesome than I am today. You WILL see my work written!
Go you! Your gonna do great. Being bipolar may be a part of you but it isn't YOU! The only people you have to answer to is you and your boys. The rest of us are more like background players and I can't wait to see what the new project is.
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