Had a pretty awesome 4th of July with family and friends. Damion and the Cubans lit fireworks while the girls did Jello-Shots! All of the kids had a blast watching the lights and sounds that overtook the sky and each child had more energy than all of the adults put together.
At some point during this long weekend I was left to my own devices, my own thoughts. After many people asking for many days "Have you talked to your mother yet?" it is still the same answer, an unequivocal "NO!" And I have no intentions of doing so to be honest with you. I was told today to make amends because stuff happens and I would feel guilty if I were no longer able to see her. I love her, she is my mom, but I did nothing wrong, and if she wants to put a man in front of her kids (I should be used to that, shes done that my entire life, I digress however) then that decision is on her.
Speaking of mothers. I decided a long time ago that when the Casey Anthony trial came about, that I was not going to follow it. I think it is heartbreaking for all that to have happened to that little girl, with her mom taking no accountability. Even though she has not been found guilty, I think that she is going to have to live with that for her entire life. Which in my opinion wont be too terribly long, since I am sure there are craploads of people who are eyeballing her out of their own sort of sniper rifles.
On a side note, I busted my ass doing research today. I was trying to find what literary characters were screwed up in the head. Of course I had to add one of my favorite crazies in literature, Goethe's Faust. I found the whole story of the attempted suicide being spoiled by a bell toll, then to sell yourself to the devil, to be intriguing a couple of years ago, so it appears in many of things that I write. I have always tried to avoid Madame Bovary, but I needed to note on Emma's neurosis, so that was in there as well. Often times, I will get so wrapped up in researching things that I forget to write. I get caught up in reading. Then there are times like these when I get so caught up in writing that I forget to make any valid points, so I am hushing now!!
Ur welcome and thank you sister who ever told you that about making mends with mom is right but I don't have to tell you that cause in the back of ur mind you already know this. It will happen when it needs to im sure. Also you need to write something already besides the blog hint hint hint hint hint I love you but u are wasting ur talent as a writer its time to get published my dear sister you know you can.
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