One Month Ago

It has been a month since I got my own place, and I survived! I am actually proud of myself for the things that I have accomplished not only in the last month, more so in the last two weeks. Despite being a crazy bitch, I proved to myself that I am more than I give myself credit for. Actually kind of upset with myself for not doing a lot of these things earlier, but we learn from our mistakes.

I can not stress how happy I am at this point, and I know things will get better for myself and my boys. And the boys are happy as well, and super proud of mommy. Peyton has been such a little support system, even at age four his undying love for his mother is enough to get me through a rough day. And hearing Elijah's sweet little compliments makes my heart just melt into a puddle. I do not know what I would do without my little men around. Despite their happiness and pride in their mother, they have been a little off track and rather rebellious lately. I personally am trying to nip it in the bud, however when you have two different people saying and disciplining in different ways, it can get confusing for a child. David and I can not write on the same page on that one. Its a shame, but what can ya do? I am going to just keep doing my thing with them, and hopefully they will start behaving accordingly.

So my intentions were to get a place, get a car, and figure things out from there, by March first, clearly that happened February first. I didn't think that I could make it that far, and since the opportunity rose, I rose as well. I have done all of those things, and plan to continue bettering myself. I plan to have a happy, healthy, drama free life, and to get rid of the people that don't deserve to be in my life, riding myself of the toxic people, as well I am going to try and actually forge friendships with the people that I have let go unnecessarily, and to get out and make more friendships. I need some more people in my life if I am going to let some people go! I also intend on following through with the plans that I make.....so far so good, but this is only the beginning of the year!

To end this, I would like to say a very big thank you to all of the people who have stuck by me lately. Thanks to my family, who I could not have done this without, especially my sister Theresa, my mother and Chico. Thanks to Ellery-my dearest friend and confidant I would have been SO LOST without you, HD-you are a great person, thanks for listening to me bitch and for putting up with me for the last few months, Becky-for answering my millions of questions and being one of the few that didn't say to me "this is what you need to do" April, Sabrina, Shannon, for all wanting to be there for me even when I didn't want to be bothered. All of my May moms and PSFTM's, and all of the other folks that have bombarded me with emails, phone calls, texts, and just showing up on my doorstep. Oh, and thanks Jessica for letting me know about this lil place, I love my lil casa de Boyd!