It will pan out

Again, it has been over a month since I have written here, its been a month and two days by my calculations. But I am not all that good with math anyway, so calculations or any math term should not be in my vocabulary. So here is the scoop on my front....I am still feeling crazed, and I now write on a normal basis. My brother Damion has been harassing me about writing a book, if only I could find motivation, time, and focus. He has been bothering me about if for the longest time, so I guess while the kid go to school, I can at least start, even if its just with a concept of where I would like to go. Other than the harassment of my bro, I have been busy writing. I have taken a British Literature class, two English classes, and have written plenty of research papers, essay, and reports and taken test to keep myself busy. Its the kind of stress that I love though, its a love hate relationship. Its funny, I have always been told I needed to write.
So, now that I covered the writing part, let me address the crazy minded part! I have been off of my meds for about 2 months, and goodness my family can tell, can we collectively say SUPER BITCH!? So I decided, since I realized how bitchy and depressed I had gotten, I got back on my meds approx a week ago. I don't remember the names of them, and I am to lazy to get up and go grab them, but I will tell ya one thing about them....they make me sleepy. And if I drink, they tear me up! I do have a problem though, sometimes I tend to overdo it, often times I will pop a bunch of em when I am stressed. I would hate to call myself a pill popper or anyone who is addicted, but its not that hard to say that denial is the key to an addiction. 
Stressed and depressed is one thing that I have been recently. School starts in two weeks, and I need soooo much for them, and limit amounts of funds to do so. But I have faith that all will be well, I will keep praying that everything will pan out.